Finally Saw Someone!

It went very well. I now feel a bit rejuvenated about seeing clients. I enjoy spending time with them. I was just being down on myself because our whole society is down on sensuality. And then I get confused, as if I really buy it, or as if I should buy it-- this default, ubiquitous negativity in this country for all things sensual.

What's strange is that I almost always have the courage of my convictions; I act on my principles, even in the face of danger, risk, or even guaranteed humiliation. Yet, when I'm by myself, I forget to give myself much credit for this. So, sometimes, I don't have the conviction of my convictions. Even though, if asked, I would be clear that I believe in my principles, often passionately.

All Dressed Up And No Place To Go

Too bad I never did get any decent bites!

Last Post Got Me Turned On and Ready

Really!

Not Getting Takers... Too Tired to See Anyone Anyway!

I simply could not get a decent bite over the weekend! A few "jerks" called me, but no one I wanted to see. When they're jerky like that, I find that they don't treat me as well, including being much less kind and giving.

I exercised today very intensely, a very new thing for me. With my delicate health, I didn't even think I would be able to exert myself as much as I did. That plus a bit of shopping, browsing, etc. And now I'm beat! I was so relaxed after that intense exercise session, I was just floating around-- very much in procrastination mode.

I asked myself what was it that I was dreading so much about seeing clients, and I just think it's the stress of meeting someone I don't know in situation that poses so many risks. That, plus the stress of finding their place, getting ready, etc., the potential for intimacy--- Tuesday tends to be a slow night anyway. That, plus I always feel a bit of tension, somehow telling myself that my service is illegitimate, contraband. This always puts a damper on my motivation.

I'm so zonked that even though I had a call come in anyway, I decided to wait until tomorrow to answer it.

Tomorrow should be better. I have much less to do, and Wednesdays are generally better luck anyway.

I hope I have all my motivation and shit together tomorrow! Plus I really hope that I get a better response than I've been getting-- I'm really down to the wire financially now.

I get a bit discouraged when things go like this.

Sensual Healing is Beneficial

Hi. This is Samara. I am writing here because I believe in my chosen profession. I facilitate healing through sensuality, sexuality, and intimacy. I see this a connected to loving, and a spiritual path as well. On a more practical level, I help to heal by promoting sex education, sexual health, relationships and relationship health.

Depending on the definition and the various details, perhaps what I do would be considered illegal in this country. Regardless, there can be no denying that what I am contributing is good, for the good of others, and that it has a healing and spiritual intention.

I am fortunate because I can choose which clients I want to work with. If they are not really receptive to a spiritual approach and to learning, then I don't see them. I cannot give to my clients when I'm not having a good feeling myself.

What I do with my clients truly benefits and heals them. These services are very much needed. Further, there is a tremendous market for them.

Note: The Painting of Venus under the Links (to the right) does bear a striking resemblence to my own appearance, despite my "bobbed" wavy hair.